(oopps... it's been long time since my last updated)

Time flies
it's already the 4th week of my degree (first year first sem)

hehe... proud to says that

Michelle is officially a banking and finance student now =)

hehe

got to know a gang of fellows

we study together... we eat together,,, we '38' together

and the most important
we laugh all the way =)

Mr. Burn~ counted you in also yazz
next time take picture together

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

10th of July

I used to be the first one who wished him

I used to prepared his birthday gift few months before

I used to celebrated our birthday together with another friend

last time

This year

I'm not going to do that

by using lots of energy to doing these

was tried to forget about

today is already 10th July

but... OF COURSE it's failed

that's why am I still awake at this time (7 in the morning)

too much things were reminding me

8th of July midnight

was emo... went to Lakeside with 2 friends

a big gang peoples were trying to make friend with me

I'm sorry that I was really not in "good condition"

accidentally.. don't know why and how

they sang Birthday song without any reason

...............................

when the time they went for supper

I chose to stayed there alone

was crying badly... phoned with someone

felt better after that

9th of July night

planned long time ago to find something to do at this night

so... went to an event.. "Kampar Got Talent"

was very smooth actually

but then

all of a sudden... don't know why and how also

one of the participants told

his partner's birthday is on tomorrow (10th of July)

....................................

din't cry this time because I can't

reached home straight open those funny shows to cheer myself

12am, 10th of July

again... everything was smooth before that

BUT

phone "bit-ed" this time

it's a birthday reminder

.......................................

I knew that I should delete his contact info

since long time ago

complicated

I'm not only in an emo-mood

but also angry

I'm angry on myself

I don't know and don't understand

why am I still concern about

will he cares about din't receive any gifts from me??

will he cares about din't receive any wishes from me??

will he cares about din't celebrate this year's birthday with each others?

will he still cares?? or start to cares?? or never ever wanna cares??

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

sorry to make this decision

nothing wrong with you

my own problem

in order to move you out

I know that i have to sacrifice something

which is........ our "friendship"

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

wow

I'm still able to recall

Last sem

when result released

I was cried almost one whole month
because of the one and only stupid subject

and now

I'm proud to tell myself now

Michelle Ho!! you did it!!!

it's proved

"不要问自己想不想..请问你自己要不要"
quoted by Steven (lovely Sir)

if you want
you will make yourself to get it

=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

Few months ago

someone told me these
"Don't spend too many time to fall in love with an 'un-worth' person

believe it or not?? If you spent 6 years to love a person
you might need to wasted double of the time to forget the person"

erm

"believe it or not??"

i'm experiencing this "step" of LOVE currently

Of course I hope that the above statement will not be true

I don't really feel like wanna waste another 12 years because of him

It's marvelous

don't know how to define this "process"

It's not nice and fun at all

It's hurting me

in long term

I really wonder

Why and How I made myself

to fall in love with this cold-blooded guy

6 years long??? Am I crazy?? (I think so ==)

I know that I need time

to let down all the weird feeling (so call love ==)

I mentioned again

all I need is just time

but not another guys

so == stop convincing me to find someone to be a boyfriend

he's not worth for me to hurt other guys

don't feel like wanna be with anyone

before I really let down "him"

wish that I will not be a 老姑婆 at last ==

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

一年前的我说不动你

一年后的今天................还是算了

当初是我错了.. 错在我..

太抬举我自己

也太小看了你

想走就走吧

这次..我只会说
一路顺风

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

不懂何时起,我不再是你fnf list里的其中一人

不懂何时起,我们不再告诉彼此所有发生的大小事

不懂何时起,我们要靠facebook/某人来知道对方的事

不懂何时起,我们不再通电话,我不再需要一个垃圾桶

不懂何时起,我们学会了ignore彼此

这些琐碎事

曾经把我们两个牵在一起

如果"它们"回不来

那我们也回不去了

我厌倦了主动

你习惯了被动

你如果无法主动

那我们也回不去了

所以

如果你做不到

就不要说我们可以回得去

不要以为时间可以让一切回到原点

它也可以把我们推得越来越远

只是你察觉不到而已

而等到你发现时

我们已经回不去了

我知道你不会来看

所以豁出去了

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

almost viewed all your blog's posts

knew that many unhappy things happen on you

I'm really sorry that

when the time you came and found me

I din't realize that you're in bad mood

feels heart pain when I saw your blog

don't know what to do

just know to worry about you

not dare to ask you whether you still ok or not

Since I feels like you will get hurt once I ask

really not willing to 在你伤口上撒盐

Although you looks like very well now

but still worry about you

And wish to tell you that

I do to be your listener all the time

I wish that you can share all your unhappy thing with me

I don't want you to have "those" weird feelings on yourself

Please do to remember

We din't treat you like "Clown"

(at least I din't!!)

Give yourself some confidence

You are important for us

as a true friend

sorry for my belated concern

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

cried many times this 2 weeks

30th of Dec

the last day of 2nd sem Final Exam

2 hardest papers at the same day

Financial Management and Management

Gastric when I woke up

9am went to sat for the exam - Financial Management

The paper was like @#$%^&*

I don't even know what I had done in the exam

went back cried after finished the paper

as I knew I will fail this subject

Cried for half an hour

Forced myself to stopped

as I still have another paper to go

Revision Revision Revision

2pm went back to sat for the 2nd paper - Management

When I first saw the questions

I felt like it's not difficult compare with the first paper

BUT when the time I putted my pan on the paper

what the things on my mind...... all gone

whole brain was - blank

2 papers gone

went back to hostel

Cried Cried Cried

insomnia this whole week

cried when I have nothing to do

that's why keep date people out yam cha

keep find movies to watch at the midnight

Sometimes
When I was watching some funny movie
I still cried for few times

Today (10 Jan)

The result was realized

I got my result

It's better than my expectation

at least not failed 2 sub but only 1

and my GPA is 2.0

I was damn happy when I knew my result

I thought I can retake the subject next sem

as I passed in GPA and CGPA

Called UTAR FGO for confirm

and their answer is "NO"

as the maximum credit hours is only 21 hours

The feeling Just like fall down from the heaven to the hell

went back home and reviewed my result clearly

for sure

cried cried cried cried cried

I passed my Financial Management

And I failed Management

I cried more sad

It's means that

I cried for nothing after FM

and made my Management failed

I swear

I paid many more efforts on it compared with last sem

I started prepared few weeks earlier than last sem

I done twice or thrice revision for all difficult subjects

especially Management

It's make me feels sad and disappointed till the max
cried few hours

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

went back to my second home today

AKA Kampung Liang Seng, Kamunting


****************************************************
ah bi "ah gong ah ma... wa deng lai liao"
ah gong/ah ma "hor hor hor... deng lai deng lai"
****************************************************


I used to shouted out loud like this =D
and my lovely grandparents AKA ah gong ah ma
always answer me this

my lovely grandparents
really sayang their grandchildren till the max



I STILL CAN REMEMBER


When I was ## years old
(I'm still in primary school.. forgot which year ady)
They bought me my very first bicycle
As I always asked them to buy for me
Some may think that it's nothing special
But.. It's a memorable memory for me
Although it's thrown


Middle of March 2010
The last time I went back to visited them... before I went Kampar for study
We were discussing about whether I can survive without air-con
And I asked them to buy me a "fan" to Kampar and they rejected me that time
I actually joking with them that time and I thought that they won't take it serious
And after the few days I reached Kampar
Surprisingly that... they really bought me one


March 2010
They bought me a bicycle as transport to school
I know maybe they 顺便 buy for me as they bought one for my cousin also
(we both studying in UTAR at the same year)
But.. I really very appreciate it
It just like a "blessing" from them


Jun/July 2010
I went back to attended my great-grandfather funeral
We were kacau them to make an air-con room for us
(It's same) They rejected again
But... after few months
There's an air-con room in the house


September 2010
We (3 sisters) went back to visited them
we were kacau them to apply Wi-Fi Services
Again... They rejected... But... today...
They were discussing about it
And asked my sugar daddy help them to apply


wakakakakakakakaka
Believe me
still got a lot of "it" are coming soon


(== forgot to remove my "苍蝇贴")
The cutest and sweetest grandparent

Love them very damn much
I clearly know that
Without them
I won't come to this world
(as they born my mom XD and my mom born me)

I enjoy to make them laugh non-stop
with my broken "tio-chiu" language

I do to be their 开心果


It's all are because of
I LOVE THEM

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

lolx
just realized
I posted 27 posts in 2010 nia

I guess
this situation will be continue
or maybe more worst than last year
unless I really very free and sienzz until boom
only I will update my blog



1st of January
enjoyed BBQ with my family
Auntie, Uncle, cousins, sis's boyfriend
and celebrated for my lovely sis AKA Winnie Ho SF
after BBQ ^^ still got Domino's Pizza as supper

accidentally found back this ^^


the 2nd and 3rd day of the 2011
I met up with my super+duper best-friends (male)
AKA William Tan BH (gor) and Eddis Poon KW

2nd of January
9 something at night
suddenly got an idea to meet them
went Mc'D with them and ate Oreo McFlurry
(gor gor belanja want) XD
after that went my house
talk talk talk talk talk

3rd of January
8 something in the morning
went to fetch Poon and Bak Heng
ate dimsum with them
after that went to Studio B

cut my hair =( someone said it look same like last time

And he curved his hair XD


145 de train
130 only we gao dim
rushed from the saloon to the railway station
Bak Heng was driving the car like rolling coaster ><
reached there "depat-depat" 145
the train gone ==

luckily 2pm still got one train to KL
nothing to do while waiting the train
38 38 and done some funny things there


Good Luck to 3 of us
don't know when is our next meet
Hope that it will not make me wait too long

I like what the barbers said
"6年朋友还是gam friend... 几难得啊"

met up with Jason at the same day =)



long time din't spent such a long time
to stay with my family and friends
the one who I care the most

do appreciating that
I still got them when I was feeling bored and emo

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”