(oopps... it's been long time since my last updated)

Time flies
it's already the 4th week of my degree (first year first sem)

hehe... proud to says that

Michelle is officially a banking and finance student now =)

hehe

got to know a gang of fellows

we study together... we eat together,,, we '38' together

and the most important
we laugh all the way =)

Mr. Burn~ counted you in also yazz
next time take picture together

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

10th of July

I used to be the first one who wished him

I used to prepared his birthday gift few months before

I used to celebrated our birthday together with another friend

last time

This year

I'm not going to do that

by using lots of energy to doing these

was tried to forget about

today is already 10th July

but... OF COURSE it's failed

that's why am I still awake at this time (7 in the morning)

too much things were reminding me

8th of July midnight

was emo... went to Lakeside with 2 friends

a big gang peoples were trying to make friend with me

I'm sorry that I was really not in "good condition"

accidentally.. don't know why and how

they sang Birthday song without any reason

...............................

when the time they went for supper

I chose to stayed there alone

was crying badly... phoned with someone

felt better after that

9th of July night

planned long time ago to find something to do at this night

so... went to an event.. "Kampar Got Talent"

was very smooth actually

but then

all of a sudden... don't know why and how also

one of the participants told

his partner's birthday is on tomorrow (10th of July)

....................................

din't cry this time because I can't

reached home straight open those funny shows to cheer myself

12am, 10th of July

again... everything was smooth before that

BUT

phone "bit-ed" this time

it's a birthday reminder

.......................................

I knew that I should delete his contact info

since long time ago

complicated

I'm not only in an emo-mood

but also angry

I'm angry on myself

I don't know and don't understand

why am I still concern about

will he cares about din't receive any gifts from me??

will he cares about din't receive any wishes from me??

will he cares about din't celebrate this year's birthday with each others?

will he still cares?? or start to cares?? or never ever wanna cares??

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

sorry to make this decision

nothing wrong with you

my own problem

in order to move you out

I know that i have to sacrifice something

which is........ our "friendship"

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

wow

I'm still able to recall

Last sem

when result released

I was cried almost one whole month
because of the one and only stupid subject

and now

I'm proud to tell myself now

Michelle Ho!! you did it!!!

it's proved

"不要问自己想不想..请问你自己要不要"
quoted by Steven (lovely Sir)

if you want
you will make yourself to get it

=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

Few months ago

someone told me these
"Don't spend too many time to fall in love with an 'un-worth' person

believe it or not?? If you spent 6 years to love a person
you might need to wasted double of the time to forget the person"

erm

"believe it or not??"

i'm experiencing this "step" of LOVE currently

Of course I hope that the above statement will not be true

I don't really feel like wanna waste another 12 years because of him

It's marvelous

don't know how to define this "process"

It's not nice and fun at all

It's hurting me

in long term

I really wonder

Why and How I made myself

to fall in love with this cold-blooded guy

6 years long??? Am I crazy?? (I think so ==)

I know that I need time

to let down all the weird feeling (so call love ==)

I mentioned again

all I need is just time

but not another guys

so == stop convincing me to find someone to be a boyfriend

he's not worth for me to hurt other guys

don't feel like wanna be with anyone

before I really let down "him"

wish that I will not be a 老姑婆 at last ==

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”