Few months ago

someone told me these
"Don't spend too many time to fall in love with an 'un-worth' person

believe it or not?? If you spent 6 years to love a person
you might need to wasted double of the time to forget the person"

erm

"believe it or not??"

i'm experiencing this "step" of LOVE currently

Of course I hope that the above statement will not be true

I don't really feel like wanna waste another 12 years because of him

It's marvelous

don't know how to define this "process"

It's not nice and fun at all

It's hurting me

in long term

I really wonder

Why and How I made myself

to fall in love with this cold-blooded guy

6 years long??? Am I crazy?? (I think so ==)

I know that I need time

to let down all the weird feeling (so call love ==)

I mentioned again

all I need is just time

but not another guys

so == stop convincing me to find someone to be a boyfriend

he's not worth for me to hurt other guys

don't feel like wanna be with anyone

before I really let down "him"

wish that I will not be a 老姑婆 at last ==

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

一年前的我说不动你

一年后的今天................还是算了

当初是我错了.. 错在我..

太抬举我自己

也太小看了你

想走就走吧

这次..我只会说
一路顺风

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

不懂何时起,我不再是你fnf list里的其中一人

不懂何时起,我们不再告诉彼此所有发生的大小事

不懂何时起,我们要靠facebook/某人来知道对方的事

不懂何时起,我们不再通电话,我不再需要一个垃圾桶

不懂何时起,我们学会了ignore彼此

这些琐碎事

曾经把我们两个牵在一起

如果"它们"回不来

那我们也回不去了

我厌倦了主动

你习惯了被动

你如果无法主动

那我们也回不去了

所以

如果你做不到

就不要说我们可以回得去

不要以为时间可以让一切回到原点

它也可以把我们推得越来越远

只是你察觉不到而已

而等到你发现时

我们已经回不去了

我知道你不会来看

所以豁出去了

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

almost viewed all your blog's posts

knew that many unhappy things happen on you

I'm really sorry that

when the time you came and found me

I din't realize that you're in bad mood

feels heart pain when I saw your blog

don't know what to do

just know to worry about you

not dare to ask you whether you still ok or not

Since I feels like you will get hurt once I ask

really not willing to 在你伤口上撒盐

Although you looks like very well now

but still worry about you

And wish to tell you that

I do to be your listener all the time

I wish that you can share all your unhappy thing with me

I don't want you to have "those" weird feelings on yourself

Please do to remember

We din't treat you like "Clown"

(at least I din't!!)

Give yourself some confidence

You are important for us

as a true friend

sorry for my belated concern

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”

cried many times this 2 weeks

30th of Dec

the last day of 2nd sem Final Exam

2 hardest papers at the same day

Financial Management and Management

Gastric when I woke up

9am went to sat for the exam - Financial Management

The paper was like @#$%^&*

I don't even know what I had done in the exam

went back cried after finished the paper

as I knew I will fail this subject

Cried for half an hour

Forced myself to stopped

as I still have another paper to go

Revision Revision Revision

2pm went back to sat for the 2nd paper - Management

When I first saw the questions

I felt like it's not difficult compare with the first paper

BUT when the time I putted my pan on the paper

what the things on my mind...... all gone

whole brain was - blank

2 papers gone

went back to hostel

Cried Cried Cried

insomnia this whole week

cried when I have nothing to do

that's why keep date people out yam cha

keep find movies to watch at the midnight

Sometimes
When I was watching some funny movie
I still cried for few times

Today (10 Jan)

The result was realized

I got my result

It's better than my expectation

at least not failed 2 sub but only 1

and my GPA is 2.0

I was damn happy when I knew my result

I thought I can retake the subject next sem

as I passed in GPA and CGPA

Called UTAR FGO for confirm

and their answer is "NO"

as the maximum credit hours is only 21 hours

The feeling Just like fall down from the heaven to the hell

went back home and reviewed my result clearly

for sure

cried cried cried cried cried

I passed my Financial Management

And I failed Management

I cried more sad

It's means that

I cried for nothing after FM

and made my Management failed

I swear

I paid many more efforts on it compared with last sem

I started prepared few weeks earlier than last sem

I done twice or thrice revision for all difficult subjects

especially Management

It's make me feels sad and disappointed till the max
cried few hours

鬼说: “21 世纪少年最高生存原则 - 爱是/不自夸/不张狂/不做害羞的事”